Write or Die dump.

i'll probably post this raw on hush, just for the sake of an update. i need to refresh my mind (actually, i was supposed to do this mind dump five days ago but what the heck, procrastination is me).

actually, while i'm typing this, biochem 08 and comsci 08 are having a conference, duh peeps are having 09's first ever word war (i volunteered as referee. it's not fair if not: my mind's filled with math equations, tectonic plates, and sedimentary rocks, no fancy words.), my neighbors are having a party for some gaddamn pathetic reason (one of their classmates passed an exam "for the first time". ew. if i'm not mistaken they're college people already.). on any other occassion, i have no qualms about the noisy environment (aka i'm used to it) but my first school week wasn't exactly fine and dandy (more on this on my official first 09 post, wait for it) so...yeah...whatever.


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A/N: Don't blame me if you acquired migraine, nosebleed, or whatever physical malady for reading this.

...i honestly fear what i'll eventually type here...

since this is just a mind dump and all that jazz, i'll try my subconscious best to avoid the topics i plan to include in my official 09 post, which include:

08 mistakes
09 hopes
08 thoughts
08 quirks
08 ...or 09...oh dear...i forgot...

it'll come back...eventually...

hey! don't spam swearwords, nan!! dsfdvcvcxxf...

oops. sorry.

anyway. where was i?

oh yeah, nothing. seriously, don't give a serious damn on this. i'm just ranting my brain off.

so, i'm cafeine-deprived, sleep-deprived, fanfiction-deprived (i can't find decent ones anymore! me thinks i've read all that fanfiction.net's gotta offer. *major sob*). only facebook (thanks to abby for convincing me to join, t'was actually fun) keeps me grounded. plurk doesn't cut it anymore. my timeline's filled so much plurks that make me think 'hey, why the hell can't i relate with the people here? oh, wait. it's because most of them aren't personal acquaintances in the first place. boo.'

what do you get in return? an insaner than usual rik. that's not a good thing mind you. a little insanity's good, but in large doses...

*off-topic alert*

i pity my blog. actually. it's the brunt of my sentiments, out-of-character moments, wangst, and everything a boyfriend couldn't, shouldn't and wouldn't handle (hi xander! i know you're reading this.XD). come to think of it, i should name blog1 as boyfriend1 and blog2 as boyfriendA. see. both are the first in their respective categories. so, no competition. lol. though, i must admit, bfA's probably more battered. i post war conferences there. *doh*

i miss my three-year-old ego. i can't daydream properly without her. it would take me about five minutes doing nothing to enter dreamland on my own. with my tyo e, it only took three seconds. why you ask? because she has vip passport. i only have a visiting visa.

i also miss my critic ego. he personally requested a month long vacation this january. apparently, i drove him nuts during the nanowrimo thingamajig. poor thing, though. he was dead beat. still, i miss him. wish he's having fun, wherever he is.

oh wait. i also miss my college ego. why? because he's the one that's supposed to be working, damnit! i'm in freakin' college. he's supposed to be doing the job, not me!! i'm just the manager!!
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*sigh* i'm really underpaid here.

Wrapping up 2008 (Meme Style)

What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
>> I spent P200+ for a single gun-shooting game. The name? House of the Dead series. It took me that amount of money to finish the story, alone. Oh, and the money's legal. My mom knows that I've spent that much on arcade stuff. Which reminds me, Cmae, how about another game next time? Let's see how many coins we have to use to finish the whole lot. Haha.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
>>I never make new year's resolutions. It's a waste of time. Why make promises you're not even sure you'll be able to keep.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
>>No.

Did anyone close to you die?
>>Fortunately, no.

What countries did you visit?
>>I have not even been out of the country since I was born. So, nyah.

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
>>Straight 1s in my class cards. Seriously.

What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
>>No date in particular. I've never been one to remember dates. Heck, I've attended too many History classes for my own good.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
>>Nada. I'm a major epic PHAIL.

What was your biggest failure?
>>See above answer.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
>>I'm allergic to morning dust. Does that answer your question?

What was the best thing you bought?
>>Nothing. My target product is still unfortunately unreachable. (For more info, dig up my Wishlist post. It's there...somewhere.)

>>Whose behavior merited celebration?
>>O.o What?

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
>>'Tis a private topic and should only be discussed with those concerned.

Where did most of your money go?
>>School: books, notebooks, ballpens, pad papers, blue books, modules, you get the idea.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
>>Departmental exams. Oh wait, perhaps "excited" is not the right term. More like "anxious" really, but hey, at least in terms of pulse rate they're similar.

What song will always remind you of 2008?
-NA-

Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier, thank heavens.
ii. thinner or fatter? Throughout this year, I've been thin. I gained a few pounds only this Christmas break (and up to now I can't decide whether I should be thankful with this. I miss my former physique.)
iii. richer or poorer? Boo.

What do you wish you'd done more of?
>>Studied more.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
>>Procrastinated less.

How will you be spending Christmas?
>>(Question should be in past tense.) Do projects. Procrastinate. Photoshop. Procrastinate. Sleep.

Did you fall in love in 2008?
>>I'm always in love. *grins*

How many one-night stands?
>>Don't do that. Only ninjas are licensed for one night stands.

What was your favorite TV program?
>>For this year? Criminal Minds and Dirty Sexy Money.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
>>I don't hold grudges.

What was the best book you read?
>>For this year? C Books by Deital and Calc by Leithold. Seriously! You'll learn a lot with this books!!

What was your greatest musical discovery?
>>What?

What did you want and got?
>>I wanted a laptop and I didn't get it.

What was your favorite film of this year?
>>I've only watched one movie this year and it's Desperadas 2, so I really don't have a basis for comparison.

What did you do on your birthday?
>>I ate cake, ice cream and went to Mass.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
>>A handy dandy laptop. Wait, scratch that adjectival phrase. Replace it with "powerhouse".

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
>>Loose shirts and an occassional touch of eccentricity.

What kept you sane?
>>Writing, blogging, filling up old notebooks with random thoughts and doodles, and Google Reader.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
>>Johnny Depp.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
>>American election. Seriously, it's like the only American politic news that made it big time. (Recession not included since it mostly concerned economists, big time monopolist, and bankers.)

Who did you miss?
>>My three-year-old self.

Who was the best new person you met?
>>Block 12. It's one of the best karambola crowd I've ever had the luck of being part of.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
>>Procrastination...saving the world of its problems...tomorrow.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
>>Er..."When I grow up" *lol, imagination PHAIL*