Write or Die dump.

i'll probably post this raw on hush, just for the sake of an update. i need to refresh my mind (actually, i was supposed to do this mind dump five days ago but what the heck, procrastination is me).

actually, while i'm typing this, biochem 08 and comsci 08 are having a conference, duh peeps are having 09's first ever word war (i volunteered as referee. it's not fair if not: my mind's filled with math equations, tectonic plates, and sedimentary rocks, no fancy words.), my neighbors are having a party for some gaddamn pathetic reason (one of their classmates passed an exam "for the first time". ew. if i'm not mistaken they're college people already.). on any other occassion, i have no qualms about the noisy environment (aka i'm used to it) but my first school week wasn't exactly fine and dandy (more on this on my official first 09 post, wait for it) so...yeah...whatever.


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A/N: Don't blame me if you acquired migraine, nosebleed, or whatever physical malady for reading this.

...i honestly fear what i'll eventually type here...

since this is just a mind dump and all that jazz, i'll try my subconscious best to avoid the topics i plan to include in my official 09 post, which include:

08 mistakes
09 hopes
08 thoughts
08 quirks
08 ...or 09...oh dear...i forgot...

it'll come back...eventually...

hey! don't spam swearwords, nan!! dsfdvcvcxxf...

oops. sorry.

anyway. where was i?

oh yeah, nothing. seriously, don't give a serious damn on this. i'm just ranting my brain off.

so, i'm cafeine-deprived, sleep-deprived, fanfiction-deprived (i can't find decent ones anymore! me thinks i've read all that fanfiction.net's gotta offer. *major sob*). only facebook (thanks to abby for convincing me to join, t'was actually fun) keeps me grounded. plurk doesn't cut it anymore. my timeline's filled so much plurks that make me think 'hey, why the hell can't i relate with the people here? oh, wait. it's because most of them aren't personal acquaintances in the first place. boo.'

what do you get in return? an insaner than usual rik. that's not a good thing mind you. a little insanity's good, but in large doses...

*off-topic alert*

i pity my blog. actually. it's the brunt of my sentiments, out-of-character moments, wangst, and everything a boyfriend couldn't, shouldn't and wouldn't handle (hi xander! i know you're reading this.XD). come to think of it, i should name blog1 as boyfriend1 and blog2 as boyfriendA. see. both are the first in their respective categories. so, no competition. lol. though, i must admit, bfA's probably more battered. i post war conferences there. *doh*

i miss my three-year-old ego. i can't daydream properly without her. it would take me about five minutes doing nothing to enter dreamland on my own. with my tyo e, it only took three seconds. why you ask? because she has vip passport. i only have a visiting visa.

i also miss my critic ego. he personally requested a month long vacation this january. apparently, i drove him nuts during the nanowrimo thingamajig. poor thing, though. he was dead beat. still, i miss him. wish he's having fun, wherever he is.

oh wait. i also miss my college ego. why? because he's the one that's supposed to be working, damnit! i'm in freakin' college. he's supposed to be doing the job, not me!! i'm just the manager!!
jkhhlkjczvmn,cmxviiwqewpoelaskdlsa.

*sigh* i'm really underpaid here.

Wrapping up 2008 (Meme Style)

What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
>> I spent P200+ for a single gun-shooting game. The name? House of the Dead series. It took me that amount of money to finish the story, alone. Oh, and the money's legal. My mom knows that I've spent that much on arcade stuff. Which reminds me, Cmae, how about another game next time? Let's see how many coins we have to use to finish the whole lot. Haha.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
>>I never make new year's resolutions. It's a waste of time. Why make promises you're not even sure you'll be able to keep.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
>>No.

Did anyone close to you die?
>>Fortunately, no.

What countries did you visit?
>>I have not even been out of the country since I was born. So, nyah.

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
>>Straight 1s in my class cards. Seriously.

What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
>>No date in particular. I've never been one to remember dates. Heck, I've attended too many History classes for my own good.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
>>Nada. I'm a major epic PHAIL.

What was your biggest failure?
>>See above answer.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
>>I'm allergic to morning dust. Does that answer your question?

What was the best thing you bought?
>>Nothing. My target product is still unfortunately unreachable. (For more info, dig up my Wishlist post. It's there...somewhere.)

>>Whose behavior merited celebration?
>>O.o What?

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
>>'Tis a private topic and should only be discussed with those concerned.

Where did most of your money go?
>>School: books, notebooks, ballpens, pad papers, blue books, modules, you get the idea.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
>>Departmental exams. Oh wait, perhaps "excited" is not the right term. More like "anxious" really, but hey, at least in terms of pulse rate they're similar.

What song will always remind you of 2008?
-NA-

Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier, thank heavens.
ii. thinner or fatter? Throughout this year, I've been thin. I gained a few pounds only this Christmas break (and up to now I can't decide whether I should be thankful with this. I miss my former physique.)
iii. richer or poorer? Boo.

What do you wish you'd done more of?
>>Studied more.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
>>Procrastinated less.

How will you be spending Christmas?
>>(Question should be in past tense.) Do projects. Procrastinate. Photoshop. Procrastinate. Sleep.

Did you fall in love in 2008?
>>I'm always in love. *grins*

How many one-night stands?
>>Don't do that. Only ninjas are licensed for one night stands.

What was your favorite TV program?
>>For this year? Criminal Minds and Dirty Sexy Money.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
>>I don't hold grudges.

What was the best book you read?
>>For this year? C Books by Deital and Calc by Leithold. Seriously! You'll learn a lot with this books!!

What was your greatest musical discovery?
>>What?

What did you want and got?
>>I wanted a laptop and I didn't get it.

What was your favorite film of this year?
>>I've only watched one movie this year and it's Desperadas 2, so I really don't have a basis for comparison.

What did you do on your birthday?
>>I ate cake, ice cream and went to Mass.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
>>A handy dandy laptop. Wait, scratch that adjectival phrase. Replace it with "powerhouse".

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
>>Loose shirts and an occassional touch of eccentricity.

What kept you sane?
>>Writing, blogging, filling up old notebooks with random thoughts and doodles, and Google Reader.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
>>Johnny Depp.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
>>American election. Seriously, it's like the only American politic news that made it big time. (Recession not included since it mostly concerned economists, big time monopolist, and bankers.)

Who did you miss?
>>My three-year-old self.

Who was the best new person you met?
>>Block 12. It's one of the best karambola crowd I've ever had the luck of being part of.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
>>Procrastination...saving the world of its problems...tomorrow.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
>>Er..."When I grow up" *lol, imagination PHAIL*

Blog Dump #5: Elementary Nostalgia Meme

Can you name 13 of ur classmates in ELEMENTARY that u can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you've written the names of all 13 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first. No Cheating!

(Dear kami, txt lingo is a pain to read when it's not on a cellphone screen.)

1. Nicole Santiago
2. Monica Sagad
3. Sherwin ___(?)___
4. Geraldine ___(?)___
5. Kimberly __(?)___
6. Arissa Eusebio
7. Alexa delos Santos
8. Danica Panelo
9. Izell Madera
10. Lou Arteche
11. Cymbelin Abariso
12. Arianne Mendoza
13. Josephine Guevarra


How did you meet 10?
Classmate from Grade 5 to 6.

What would you do/what would happen if you had never met 1?
What (or who, in this case) I don't know won't kill me.

What would you do if 6 and 2 date?
Er, shocked, I suppose. It's not everyday I get to know authentic homosexual relationships, not that I seriously mind.

Have you ever seen 4 cry?
Yes. If I'm not mistaken it was her bag that got mysteriously lost one school day only to reappear in the classroom the following day.

Do you think 10 is cute?
Last time I saw her, yeah.

What's 7's Favorite color?
I honestly don't know. We weren't best buds during elementary days.

What would you do if 5 confessed he/she loved you?
Woah, no chance at all. We're both waaaay out of each other's leagues. And I can't imagine her swinging that way.

Fact about 9:
She, 8, and 10 are best buds.

Who is 4 going out with?
I don't know. Last time I saw her, we were in Grade 4.

What is number 5 to you?
Former classmate.

Would you ever live with 13?
No.

Is 2 single?
I don't know.

Where does 7 live?
I don't know.

What do you think about 12?
Indifference. Honestly, can you harbor sentimental thoughts on someone you haven't seen since Grade 6 and is not even that buddy-buddy with in the first place?

What's the best thing about 8?
She's pretty easy to rile up. I spent a quarter of my Grade 5 and 6 lives doing that.

Who is 11 to you?
Former classmate.

Favorite Memory with 1?
Nil. We're not that close. Though it's pretty amusing that out of all the people I named, she was the one I got to be classmates with twice in highschool.

4chan defends fangirls.

(Despite 4chan's notoriety, it's still worth browsing for the lulz.)

Image Thread: \x\ Paranormal

"So I had this friggin flu on the weekend. I woke up during fever and always heard little children singing...not words or stuff, just like melodies. It was kinda soothing. I have no clue what the hell that was."

"I do believe that is called schizophrenia."

"Fever and other illnesses can make you hallucinate, provided they are serious enough.

No big deal."

"I got flu also, but no singing lolis. damnit."

(rofl)

Image Thread: /y/ Yaoi
(words of wisdom)

"If you hate yaoi, why are you here then? GO AWAY PLZ. FANGIRLS ARE STRONGER THAN U ANYWAYS."

(behold the awesome power of fangirls!!!)
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Edit:
Here's another from \x\.

"Project 906 is Project 906 in reverse."

"Wtf are you trying to say anon?! Damnit, don't scare us with that."

(epic fail alert)

Blog Dump #4: The Meme's Lying, DAMNIT!!

How old do you act?

[x] I always do my homework/work. //It didn't say anything about the quality XD.
[x] I actually enjoy intellectual conversations.
[ ] I think politics are exciting. //What a drag...
[ ] My parents and grand-parents have better things.
Total: 2

[x] I show up for school/work everyday unless I'm sick. //Heck, the condition is non-existent in my case.
[x] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[ ] I have never gotten a detention.
[x] I watch talk shows and point out the credibility of it all.
[x] I know credibility means without looking it up.
[x] I drink coffee at least once a week.
Total:5

[x] I know how to run the dish washer and/or do the dishes.
[x] I can count to ten in Spanish.
[x] When I say I'm going to do something, I do it. //Eventually. Procrastination is me.
[ ] I mow the lawn.
[ ] I can wash the car. //If only I have one to wash.
[x] I can make adults laugh...without being stupid. //Sarcasm is me.
[ ] I remember to water my plants. //Don't have one.
[x] I study when I have to. //Most of the time.
[x] I pay attention at school/work. //Most of the time.
[x] I remember to feed my pets. //And clean them, too.
[ ] I'm generally organized. //Organization is not me.
Total: 7

[x] I can spell "experience" without looking it up. //This is stupid.
[x] I clean up my own mess.
[x] The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee. //Or tea. Not picky.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need. //Money is hard to come by nowadays. It's practically suicidal to waste them.
[x] I understand jokes the first time they are said.
[x] I listen to my elders. //Most of the time.
[x] I can type fast.
Total: 7 //Wow, perfect score!

[ ] My choice in clothing is acceptable in an office or something.
[ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[x] I can look at someone hot without thinking of sex.
[x] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it.
[ ] People have said that I act older than I am.
Total: 3

Now, add up the x's!!

Result: 24
(What the heck, this thing's lying!!)

Blog Dump #3: Decent QnA.

1. How has LJ Blogger blogging changed your life?
It proved me that not all insane people land themselves in mental hospitals. Most of them get connected with each other via blogging. Also, it proved me that insanity is no longer something to be ashamed of. *headdesk*

2. Do you have a Facebook or MySpace account? Why/not?
I remember signing up on Facebook once on a whim, but I immediately lost interest while trying to fill up all those profile questions and went on my merry little way. I suppose the admin must have deleted that one already to accomodate for the newbies. Admittedly, I can't even remember the email I used to register there.
MySpace, no. I haven't. MySpace is hosted by Microsoft (I think) and anything Microsoft-related is off-limits for me. Don't ask why.

3. Is there any particular song you listen to to jump-start your day?
No. I'm not a morning person in the first place. Caffeine or choco or milk does that for me.

4. Are you happy with your career? And if you don't have one or are not happy, what is your dream job?
I'm currently a student searching for random ways to earn legal/decent money, so no career yet. My dream job? Something in the line of my course obviously, and preferably, that something should also pay satisfyingly. Hey, it's a tough world by the time I graduate. I want to earn my keep.

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
Depends on what the situation calls, but I'm mostly introverted.

6. Do you believe in fate/destiny? Soulmates?
No, I control my own life. No.

7. Do you trust easily?
No. Besides, trust is a relative term.

8. The last song you listened to?
Every Heart by BoA (Inuyasha)

9. What never fails to make you smile?
Anything can make me smile; what kind of smile is a different matter altogether.

10. The last time you dressed fancy, what did you wear and why did you dress fancy?
If "fancy" meant gowns and flowing dresses and intricate hair styles, then that was on our Prom during third year (I intentionally skipped the Senior Prom). I wore a lilac dress gown whatever-I-forgot-the-exact-term. Why I dressed fancy? Well, duh, I'm not eccentric enough to wear PJs on a formal occassion.

11. Is being tagged fun?
Depends on your definition of tag. If you were referring to "Tag! You're it!" kind of tag, then not really. Especially when you're playing against a small crowd. If it's the "Tag n people to answer this meme." kind, then yes, especially when you're a blogger enthusiast as well. After all, a meme is still a post. It's (in my opinion) one of the substantial excuse of a blog post ever invented for those who occasionally run out of brain juices.

12. Where do you see yourself five years from now?
In a job. What kind of job? Well, the daydreamer Me believes it's at Google Company or Microsoft or Oracle at least, with a high-paying position and is currently making full use of the four-year worth of academic toil. Oh, and a part-time instructor, too.

The realistic Me is mum on the subject.

13. Does it annoy you when you keep seeing the same questions in surveys?
Yes, it is rather tiring to type the same answers over and over. Plus, I'm sure my readers are getting tired of encountering the same thing at every other post.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Question null and void. Nobody tagged me. Just ganked this (as usual) from a random site.

15. Would you rather be intelligent but have the weight of the world on your shoulders or ignorant and happy?
I never did give a damn over the saying "Ignorance is bliss."

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
Three at most.

17. What would you like to name your children, if any?
Future family thoughts are entertained, but are not top priority as of now. My mind doesn't bother with the details, yet.

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
*blank stare*

19. What's your worse habit?
I'm 10% compulsive, 10% procrastinator, 10% psycho, 10% sadistic. The remaining 60% is yet to be sufficiently described.

So...let your mind conjure the answer itself.

20. If you could be any age, what age would you wish to be?
During my lowest moments, I would always wish I were a ten-year-old again. Or somewhere near that age. It's the only time I threw a book at a classmate and not scolded for it.

Blog Dump #2: Surname meme

Use the first letter of your last name to answer each of the following.

Featured letter: P

/*Folks, I'm being honest either way here. Check my blogger profile and you'll see that P is really the first letter of my "last" name. On the other hand, those who knew me personally knows that P is also the first letter of my real last name.

So, no suing, ayt?*/

1. Famous artist/band/musician:
Local: Parokya ni Edgar, Paraluman
Foreign: Paramore

2. Five-letter word:
Local: patak
Foreign: priest, prince, piano

3. US State: Pennsylvania
(Honestly, why do I have to get one of the states that's a pain to spell?)

4. Boy name: Pablo

5. Girl name: Paris

6. Occupation: Programmer

7. Something you wear: Prada Women's Black Jacket that's currently on sale
(actually, that's just wishful thinking since I can't even pay for a tenth of it's price, sale or otherwise. Here's the link if you're wondering why I'm fawning over it. http://www.stylesell.com/prada-womens-black-jacket-p-290.html)

8. Something found in a kitchen: Pepper

9. Reason for being late: Party-hangover
(not that I've tried that excuse before)

10. Celebrity: Pattinson, Robert
(Twilight mania's still rampant.)

11. Something you shout: PIZZA!!!

12. Body part: Pancreas.

Blog Dump #1: Another Song Meme/Poem Generator

Put your mp3 player on shuffle...write down the first line of 20 songs as a poem. The line from the 21st song is the title. Have fun!

After putting my Winamp on random, these are the first 21 songs I got:
1. Lovestoned - Justin Timberlake
2. Hallelujah - John Cale
3. Too Little, Too Late - Jojo
4. Logos naki World - Yasushi Ishii*
5. Kokomo - Beach Boys
6. Anna ni Issho Datta no ni - See-Saw*
7. Shy Girl - Cascades
8. In Her Eyes - Josh Groban
9. Mad World - Gary Jules
10. Take a Chance on Me - ABBA
11. Welcome to my Romance - Yohei Izumi*
12. Too Much, Too Litte, Too Late - Johnny Mathis & Denice Williams
13. Jumpin' Jumpin - Destiny's Child
14. Kiss From A Rose - Seal
15. You Can't Take Me - Bryan Adams
16. Lay All Your Love On Me - ABBA
17. Baby, Don't You Break My Heart Slow - Vonda Shepard
18. Don't Cha - Pussycat Dolls
19. Take A Bow - Rihanna
20. When You Look Me in the Eyes - Jonas Brothers
21. [Title] Say My Name - Destiny's Child


Aaaand here's the generated poem:

"Say My Name"

She's freaky and she knows it
I've heard there was a secret chord
Come with me
Tell me cool vibration
Aruba, Jamaica oooh I wanna take ya
We were so close together, but the twilight has a different color now
(anna ni issho datta no ni yuugure wa mou chigau iro)
Shy girl, shy girl
She stares through my shadow
All around me are familiar faces
If you change your mind, I'm the first in line
In what manner did you love me?
(donna fuu ni boku ga suki de)
Guess it's over, call it a day
Ladies leave your man at home
There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea
Got to fight another fight - I gotta run another night
I wasn't jealous before we met
I liked the way you wanted me
I know you like me
How 'bout a round of applause, standing ovation
If the heart is always searching.

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* I really didn't expect my Winamp to pick j-pop songs. So, to be fair and avoid making my "poem" a clash of languages, I took the English translation instead. Now, since obviously I can't determine if the translation's accurate, I enclosed the actual lines in parentheses.

It just so happened that Logos Naki World is actually sung in English.

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A/N: To make up for my long hiatus, I'll be dumping all those reserved posts I saved in Notepad. Obviously, my hands are too worked up and "dedicated" to blogging to actually forgo it. The only problem here is (surprisesurpise) time.

So, I officially declare this day as Blog-Dumping Day.

Song Meme of another Kind

Ganked from Ceres-chan this time.

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How many songs: 549*

Sort by song title
-First Song: Five for Fighting - 100 Years
-Last Song: Chicago - You're the Inspiration

Sort by time
-Shortest Song: Alvin & the Chipmunks - Funky Town (0:27)
-Longest Song: Black Eyed Peas - Pump It (16:36)

/* NULL AND VOID. I don't bother with albums
Sort by album
-First Song:
-Last Song:
*/

Top 10 Most Played Songs:

1. Home Maade Kazoku - Nagareboshi
2. Britney Spears - Circus
3. Britney Spears - Gimme More
4. David Archuleta - Crush
5. 6cyclemind - Prinsesa
6. Evanescence - Call Me When You're

Sober
7. Westlife - World of Our Own
8. Flo Rida - In The Ayer
9. Britney Spears - Piece of Me
10. Shakira - Hips Don't Lie

First 5 songs that come up on Shuffle:

1. Rey Valera - Kung Tayo'y Magkakalayo
2. NSync - Drive Myself Crazy
3. Air Supply - Here I Am
4. David Bowie - As The World Falls Down
5. Beatles - I Want to Hold Your Hand

Search ....
"sex", how many songs come up?: 5
"love", how many songs come up?: 73
"you", how many songs come up?: 70
"death", how many songs come up? 5
"hate", how many songs come up? 1
"wish" how many songs come up? 0


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* Scope and Limitations:
Current playlist only. I'll be posting one for my whole song list eventually.

Realizations sucks. Well, not always, but they still sometimes do.

I've come to realize that my hair: will never ever look like that of the shampoo commercial models. Good thing I'm past the acceptance stage. I'm aiming for curls now. :D

I've come to realize that my heart: will never ever be whole; not when it's owned by a harem of men, fiction and non-fiction alike.

I've come to realize that my job: must either be at Google Company or Microsoft.

I've come to realize that when I'm driving: ...hang on, I don't drive yet. Oh well.

I've come to realize that I need: more sleeping time to recover those countless weeks of staring non-stop at the computer screen, praying fervently for her programs not to crash and ruin the whole OS.

I've come to realize that I've lost: several fragments of my sanity when I read Twilight. No, that's not a good thing, even in my terms. Twi permanently scarred my pet plot bunnies.

I've come to realize that I don't like it when: I'm talking to a hypocrite who can't even use a tad subtlety about it. I don't like it, too, when I'm talking to a complete nut-head.

I've come to realize that money: can't buy happiness. But it can buy me a handy-dandy laptop, which can definitely raise new levels of giddyness for my part.

I've come to realize that certain people: aren't cold-hearted bastards. They're just emotionally stunted. There's a difference.

I've come to realize that yesterday: I could have started my school work already, but I didn't merely because it's still Sunday.

I've come to realize that I'll always: be more blunt than majority of the population, and it's not always a good thing. *sigh*

I've come to realize that my mother: is the greatest blessing the High Heavens could have given me.

Before I went to sleep last night, I realized that: I really should just quit reading forum wars. Especially when said wars occurred in 4chan.

I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning: I'll be having another sneezing fit for waking up at such an ungodly hour (which is 8 am). I did.

I've come to realize that right now I am thinking: that perhaps this particular item is only included as a filler, since it asks nothing significant to the meme-r.

I've come to realize that my dad: probably doesn't know what I looked like now, since it's been four or five years since he last saw me.

I've come to realize that today: is rather uneventful. I can't wait for 26.

I've come to realize that tonight: will probably get interesting. Probably not.

I've come to realize that I really want: to move on with my life and get started with the real deal.

I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this: is DHW. He ganked most of my other memes anyway.

I've come to realize that life: is what you make of it.

I've come to realize that my friends: are more or less and deranged as I am. (You can correct me if you wish. :D)